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advent

[victoriaandfriend]

 

"Who am I, that the mother of my Lord should visit me?" (Luke 1:43, REB)

Everything is gestation and then bringing forth.  - Ranier Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet


Many of us Protestants have given the "born again" analogy (as we interpret it) such a central place in our thinking that we cannot see the New Testament's more well-developed and mystical gestational analogy. The latter analogy has become the chief focus of my Advent celebration in recent years.

Here it is: Like Mary, we carry Christ around inside of us. We give birth at our resurrection.

A few moments' reflection may suggest why this lesser-known gestational analogy doesn't get as much play in our culture as the "born again" one. Instead of being the child -- the focus of attention -- we are the pregnant woman with someone else to focus on. Selflessness isn't the end of it, either, since a pregnancy also requires patience. In the mother-of-Christ analogy, we will never fully experience our life's purpose.

Until we're dead, that is. But what happens after our strut and fret means little to us anymore, don't you think?

The born-again analogy and the pregnant-with-Christ analogy kind of blend here and there in the New Testament, so it's difficult to really compare them. But I'll try, since the pregnant-with-Christ side of it is fairly unknown.

The New Testament is so serious about our role as mothers of Christ that it's not quite right to call it an analogy, really. The idea isn't expressed elsewhere in other, more theoretical terms. It is expressed in other analogies, most notably in Jesus' farming parables. In them, Christ (or God's word) is still the seed, but, instead of a pregnant woman, we're dirt.

In other words, the New Testament doesn't say our relationship to Christ is like that of a woman to her unborn child. If you still see our pregnancy as figurative language after reading the New Testament, you might describe it as a metaphor (its expressions in turn standard, implied, and extended) and not as a simile. The New Testament uniformly says that we are pregnant with Christ. New Testament writers know how to use literary terms like "allegory" (e.g., Galatians 4:24), but they soften our pregnancy only by classifying it as a "mystery." How can you be a little pregnant?

I'll take a few paragraphs to develop the analogy.

Our pregnancy begins after something like the negotiation Mary makes with the angel in Luke 1. God proposes the pregnancy, and we reflect on its impact. At some point, we accept the proposal. Then, like Mary, we receive God's sperma (pardon my Greek).

The pregnancy analogy relies on the same idea of seed found in some "born again" scriptures. Peter writes that we have received incorruptible seed (1 Peter 1:23). It is "receiving" in this sense of receiving seed that John writes about in a famous passage:

But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name: Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God. (John 1:12-13, KJV)

Though the seed inside us is incorruptible, it starts small and grows. Think of Jesus' farming analogies, most notably the parables of the sower, the mustard seed, and this harvest parable:

He said, 'The kingdom of God is like this. A man scatters seed on the ground; he goes to bed at night and gets up in the morning, and meanwhile the seed sprouts and grows-how, he does not know. The ground produces a crop by itself, first the blade, then the ear, then full grain in the ear; but as soon as the crop is ripe, he starts reaping, because harvest time has come.' (Mark 4:26-29, REB)

The harvest, which Jesus equates in other parables with the end of the world, is like birth. Until our child's birth, we're carrying something alive and growing. We're carrying the "new self" that Paul describes as "being renewed to a true knowledge according to the image of the One who created him . . ." (Col. 3:10, KJV)

We carry the seed of our own hope around in us. "Christ in you, the hope of glory," as Paul's letter to the Colossians puts it.

Here's how the resurrection is equated with birth. In Paul's writings, Jesus is the "firstborn from the dead." (Col. 1:18) He is also the "firstborn among many brethren." (Rom. 8:29) (Paul so equates the resurrection with birth that he uses a gestation verse to back up his assertion that Jesus rose from the dead:

And we declare unto you glad tidings, how that the promise which was made unto the fathers, God hath fulfilled the same unto us their children, in that he hath raised up Jesus again; as it is also written in the second psalm, Thou art my Son, this day have I begotten thee. (Acts 13:32-33, KJV))

And we are some of Jesus' "many brethren" who will be born at the resurrection.

So we'll give birth to Christ, but, in another sense, we'll give birth to our true selves. We will become what we've always been, just as we wait with Mary each Advent season for him who has already come.

Yes, we're daughters and sons of God now. But we shouldn't confuse conception with good parenting. Paul sets a higher standard for a mature child of God: "For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God." (Rom. 8:14, NAS) Paul saw himself as pregnant with some of his pregnant, young charges ("My children, with whom I am again in labor until Christ is formed in you . . ." (Gal. 4:19)). Christ is still forming in us, it seems.

I love thinking of myself as a child of God. But that concept might naturally lead me to want a fuller expression of my spiritual lineage than what I currently see:

Beloved, now we are children of God, and it has not appeared as yet what we will be. We know that when He appears, we will be like Him, because we will see Him just as He is. And everyone who has this hope fixed on Him purifies himself, just as He is pure. (1 John 3:2-3, NAS)

We're daughters and sons now, but that really hasn't been revealed yet. Keep it under your hat. All creation waits for this revelation, Paul says in his letter to the Romans, and the revelation won't happen until our resurrection (Rom. 8:19). When we're revealed at the resurrection as daughters and sons of God, we'll be like Jesus.

It's more powerful that way. More real. I don't have to live up to some sort of American Superman ideal in this lifetime. The scriptures about suffering make more sense because many of them are tied to our later revelation as children of God. I carry my hope; I carry what I will become. And, if this pregnancy is real, it will affect me. I will purify myself, as John points out.

Advent was once, like Lent, a penitential season. This heritage comes down to us in the form of Advent’s purple vestments and candles. The lone rose candle in the Advent wreath represents a joyous respite from the heart’s preparation, a respite more fully expressed in the rose vestments and services of Gaudete Sunday during the third week of Advent (“Gaudete” is Latin for “rejoice”).

While the deliberate preparation of the heart is no longer emphasized as much in modern celebrations of Advent, the connection between Jesus’ birth and his second advent is still made clear. According to New Advent’s Catholic Encyclopedia, “In both Office and Mass throughout Advent continual reference is made to our Lord's second coming . . .”

About ten of us, including some young mothers, were having some fun with this pregnancy analogy yesterday. We considered the first trimester with its wretched morning sickness. We thought of how newly pregnant women sometimes reassure themselves of their pregnancy. We reflected on a baby's growing evidence and role -- even personality -- as she comes closer to term. We thought about how pregnant women often become increasingly impatient for birth. We talked about how, when we're pregnant, we live for two. How we're weak. How we develop an obscure, occasional communication with our child as time goes on. How others may find us attractive in a way we can't comprehend. How painful it can be at the end.

We sat around on Christmas Eve, like Elizabeth and Mary before us, encouraging one another in our pregnancies. We waited together.

[Elizabeth and Mary] created space for each other to wait. They affirmed for each other that something was happening that was worth waiting for. . . . The visit of Elizabeth and Mary is one of the Bible's most beautiful expressions of what it means to form community, to be together, gathered around a promise, affirming that something is really happening. . . . Waiting together, nurturing what has already begun, expecting its fulfillment -- that is the meaning of marriage, friendship, community, and the Christian life. (Henri Nouwen, Weavings, January 1987)


[The picture above is of Victoria, at right, pregnant with B and waiting with a friend.]

 

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Posted December 2006

 
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[flower]

everydayandeverynight.com

There's that story in Talmud about planting a carob tree that will only bear fruit in 70 years, long after the planter is gone. What is the motivation for the planter? Someone now deceased had planted trees for him. He's returning the favor.

Planting this linden required less patience, though certainly some. And just like parenting, there are gratifications at every step in the development. My ten-year old son already hangs off its branches. Our Dog Boaz urinates on it. I lean on it and take photos of it.

[Here's the whole post.]


Shadows and Symbols

We see here a personal connection between God and each of his stars. We see him not just having created them (past tense) but leading and ordering them still (present tense). There is a connection of call and response from him to these great balls of fire in the heavens. And he’s keeping score: he knows where each one is at all times.

This is not the God who can easily be boxed into the many categories and thoughts of humankind. And this is definitely not a boring or mass-marketed Supreme Being. This is the one who demonstrates a fireworks of creativity and artistry.

[Here's the whole post.]

[gravestone]

my gorgeous somewhere

From behind cold tables, men back      out
without words. Beat clean and   purple-black,
they relinquish certain prizes:
panties, condom wrappers
and other residual proofs of   conquest.

[Here's the whole poem.]

[trees]

mole

A student reported that he once said to C.S. Lewis, "the amount of really great poetry is very small." At which Lewis snapped, in some irritation, "The amount that can be read with pleasure and profit is enormous."

I agree. I don't have much patience with the idea of "greatness" in the arts, which I think does more harm than good.

[Here's the whole post.]


Florescence

She wears silk dresses in emerald   and
lapis lazuli spun from the peacock’s   tail.
Sometimes I imagine the threads   tugging,
pulling her back and hold on tight.

[Here's the whole poem.]

[tree]

the cassandra pages

The drive west last week, across Vermont and into New York, was one of the most ethereal and beautiful trips I've ever made over that route. I traveled in silence, in the early morning, alone. The clouds still hung low over the Green Mountains, and a hazy fog persisted in the flatter pastures on the border between the two states south of Lake George - it would burn off later in the morning and expose the extreme heat we've had since. But in those early morning hours, the mountains and farmland were dreamy and quiet and empty as the space in which I was traveling.

[Here's the whole post.]


On the Slow Train

What I had learned was folk etymology--what Wikipedia calls "A commonly held misunderstanding of the origin of a particular word, a false etymology." Folk etymologies are usually more interesting than the actual word origin. Sometimes folk etymologies can unfairly cast a bad light on some perfectly innocent words, such as picnic, or phrases such as rule of thumb. But for the most part, folk etymologies can be a lot of fun.

[Here's the whole post.]

[leaf]

Creature of the Shade

But as soon as I asked it I knew she wouldn't be able to answer. I was looking for something like "north" or "west," but she, despite being a transport management professional, just didn't use such words to organize her sense of a city. She used words like "green building" and "flagpole." She could speak of left and right, but these narrative markers don't help you unless you're already on the right course.

[Here's the whole post.]


not native fruit

I've just begun a new book by Susan Griffin, "Wrestling with the Angel of Democracy." So far, it lives up to Griffin's standards for exquisite reasoning and prose. She leads us through the labyrinth of her own inner experience where it meets the outer world of both history and current events. At certain points of connection with current events I remember feeling exactly what she expresses. I take it that the inference of the book's title is that, just as in the Bible story when Jacob wrestles with the angel of the Lord and will not let him go until the angel blesses him, we must now wrestle with the angel of democracy, and not let him go.

[Here's the whole post.]

[picture]

Everydayandeverynight.com

I'm launching my journal again for 5768/2008.

In this omer journal, I take a Jewish-mythic point-of-view which presumes that I, personally, together with all Jews past, present and future, left Egypt and stood at Mt. Sinai together. This perspective challenges each Jew to join the Jewish experience and not be limited by the actual historical time period in which one lives. This perspective places human imagination at the center of religious engagement.

Our leaving Egypt is only the beginning of our path to liberation. Free from the bonds of Pharaoh, we seek a better, more human life. We begin this journey by the shores of the Nile. We look back in awe at a sea now appearing normal after having miraculously parted. But what now?

[Here's the whole post.]


via negativa

It was my birthday, and I had been given a live shrew in a box — not for a pet, but simply to admire and to photograph. I was a little disappointed at first that I didn’t get any real presents, but the shrew was an admirably fierce little creature who attacked anything thrust in its direction, and I soon appreciated the wisdom of the gesture: loaning me a fully wild creature, something that can never be owned or controlled. The idea that anyone can own anything — it’s such a delusion, isn’t it? But that’s what drives this mania of consumption imperiling the earth.

[Here's the whole post.]

[picture]

Mole

Darling,
The rain you sent was mixed with snow.
I could not tell which between
The snowflakes and the apple blossom
On the black sidewalk; I woke and you were

[Here's the whole poem.]

[Picture]

The Middlewesterner

You see what you see. Don't beat yourself up too badly about it. Tomorrow the sky will be something different, a blue sheerness of petticoat, a shiny muslin, a white gauze.

Metaphor takes you away; it doesn't bring you back. You come back on your own if you get here at all.

[Here's the whole post.]

[Picture]

Lekshe's Mistake

Place
is not substance, not
a point in space,
more a point in time
when the conjunction of mind
and matter create
an experience
that
makes us believe there is a spot
to which we can return.

[Here's the whole poem.]


Marcia Bonta

Dragoo, affectionately referred to as “Skunk Man,” has little or no sense of smell, so as a mephitologist he can easily study and live with skunks. When he wants one for his research, he chases it down, picks it up by its tail, and is liberally sprayed, because, as skunk expert Richard G. Van Gelder discovered back in the 1960s, you can only grab a skunk by the tail and escape being sprayed if you surprise the animal. Otherwise, it is able to evert its anus and expose the nipples from its huge and squishy scent sacs, which are then ready to fire even if you do pick it up by its tail.

[Here's the whole post.]

[child walking]

Dick Jones' Patteran Pages

Your soft clock
scatters seconds like
peas on a drum.

A feather pulse
stutters in your
neck.

[Here's the whole poem.]

[duck photo]

Slow Reader

Aubrey is the guru of the Shelf Monkeys, a secret ‘book club’ to which Thomas gets invited. “Some books are simply a waste of paper, a waste of effort both to write and to read.” The flaming cover of this novel is sufficient clue to the book burnings that ensue, inspired by Fahrenheit 451. Books burnings, by the literate?! Only for books deemed not worthy by the members’ code. “We meet, we debate, we burn. It’s therapy, really.” Things escalate quickly and darkly, Lord of the Flies style, and Thomas is compelled to choose between his loyalties to his friends, literature, ethics, and his sanity.

[Here's the whole post.]


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