"Who
am I, that the mother of my Lord should visit me?" (Luke 1:43,
REB)
Everything
is gestation and then bringing forth. - Ranier Maria Rilke,
Letters to a Young Poet
Many of us Protestants have given the "born again" analogy
(as we interpret it) such a central place in our thinking that we
cannot see the New Testament's more well-developed and mystical
gestational analogy. The latter analogy has become the chief focus
of my Advent celebration in recent years.
Here
it is: Like Mary, we carry Christ around inside of us. We give birth
at our resurrection.
A few
moments' reflection may suggest why this lesser-known gestational
analogy doesn't get as much play in our culture as the "born
again" one. Instead of being the child -- the focus of attention
-- we are the pregnant woman with someone else to focus on. Selflessness
isn't the end of it, either, since a pregnancy also requires patience.
In the mother-of-Christ analogy, we will never fully experience
our life's purpose.
Until
we're dead, that is. But what happens after our strut and fret means
little to us anymore, don't you think?
The
born-again analogy and the pregnant-with-Christ analogy kind of
blend here and there in the New Testament, so it's difficult to
really compare them. But I'll try, since the pregnant-with-Christ
side of it is fairly unknown.
The
New Testament is so serious about our role as mothers of Christ
that it's not quite right to call it an analogy, really. The idea
isn't expressed elsewhere in other, more theoretical terms. It is
expressed in other analogies, most notably in Jesus' farming parables.
In them, Christ (or God's word) is still the seed, but, instead
of a pregnant woman, we're dirt.
In
other words, the New Testament doesn't say our relationship to Christ
is like that of a woman to her unborn child. If you still
see our pregnancy as figurative language after reading the New Testament,
you might describe it as a metaphor (its expressions in turn standard,
implied, and extended) and not as a simile. The New Testament uniformly
says that we are pregnant with Christ. New Testament writers
know how to use literary terms like "allegory" (e.g.,
Galatians 4:24), but they soften our pregnancy only by classifying
it as a "mystery." How can you be a little pregnant?
I'll
take a few paragraphs to develop the analogy.
Our
pregnancy begins after something like the negotiation Mary makes
with the angel in Luke 1. God proposes the pregnancy, and we reflect
on its impact. At some point, we accept the proposal. Then, like
Mary, we receive God's sperma (pardon my Greek).
The
pregnancy analogy relies on the same idea of seed found in some
"born again" scriptures. Peter writes that we have received
incorruptible seed (1 Peter 1:23). It is "receiving" in
this sense of receiving seed that John writes about in a famous
passage:
But
as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons
of God, even to them that believe on his name: Which were born,
not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of
man, but of God. (John 1:12-13, KJV)
Though
the seed inside us is incorruptible, it starts small and grows.
Think of Jesus' farming analogies, most notably the parables of
the sower, the mustard seed, and this harvest parable:
He
said, 'The kingdom of God is like this. A man scatters seed on
the ground; he goes to bed at night and gets up in the morning,
and meanwhile the seed sprouts and grows-how, he does not know.
The ground produces a crop by itself, first the blade, then the
ear, then full grain in the ear; but as soon as the crop is ripe,
he starts reaping, because harvest time has come.' (Mark 4:26-29,
REB)
The
harvest, which Jesus equates in other parables with the end of the
world, is like birth. Until our child's birth, we're carrying something
alive and growing. We're carrying the "new self" that
Paul describes as "being renewed to a true knowledge according
to the image of the One who created him . . ." (Col. 3:10,
KJV)
We
carry the seed of our own hope around in us. "Christ in you,
the hope of glory," as Paul's letter to the Colossians puts
it.
Here's
how the resurrection is equated with birth. In Paul's writings,
Jesus is the "firstborn from the dead." (Col. 1:18) He
is also the "firstborn among many brethren." (Rom. 8:29)
(Paul so equates the resurrection with birth that he uses a gestation
verse to back up his assertion that Jesus rose from the dead:
And
we declare unto you glad tidings, how that the promise which was
made unto the fathers, God hath fulfilled the same unto us their
children, in that he hath raised up Jesus again; as it is also
written in the second psalm, Thou art my Son, this day have I
begotten thee. (Acts 13:32-33, KJV))
And
we are some of Jesus' "many brethren" who will be born
at the resurrection.
So
we'll give birth to Christ, but, in another sense, we'll give birth
to our true selves. We will become what we've always been, just
as we wait with Mary each Advent season for him who has already
come.
Yes,
we're daughters and sons of God now. But we shouldn't confuse conception
with good parenting. Paul sets a higher standard for a mature child of God: "For all who are being led by the Spirit of God,
these are sons of God." (Rom. 8:14, NAS) Paul saw himself as
pregnant with some of his pregnant, young charges ("My children,
with whom I am again in labor until Christ is formed in you . .
." (Gal. 4:19)). Christ is still forming in us, it seems.
I love
thinking of myself as a child of God. But that concept might naturally
lead me to want a fuller expression of my spiritual lineage than
what I currently see:
Beloved,
now we are children of God, and it has not appeared as yet what
we will be. We know that when He appears, we will be like Him,
because we will see Him just as He is. And everyone who has this
hope fixed on Him purifies himself, just as He is pure. (1 John
3:2-3, NAS)
We're
daughters and sons now, but that really hasn't been revealed yet.
Keep it under your hat. All creation waits for this revelation,
Paul says in his letter to the Romans, and the revelation won't
happen until our resurrection (Rom. 8:19). When we're revealed at
the resurrection as daughters and sons of God, we'll be like Jesus.
It's
more powerful that way. More real. I don't have to live up to some
sort of American Superman ideal in this lifetime. The scriptures
about suffering make more sense because many of them are tied to
our later revelation as children of God. I carry my hope; I carry
what I will become. And, if this pregnancy is real, it will affect
me. I will purify myself, as John points out.
Advent
was once, like Lent, a penitential season. This heritage comes down
to us in the form of Advents purple vestments and candles.
The lone rose candle in the Advent wreath represents a joyous respite
from the hearts preparation, a respite more fully expressed
in the rose vestments and services of Gaudete
Sunday during the third week of Advent (Gaudete
is Latin for rejoice).
While
the deliberate preparation of the heart is no longer emphasized
as much in modern celebrations of Advent, the connection between
Jesus birth and his second advent is still made clear. According
to New Advents
Catholic Encyclopedia, In both Office and Mass throughout
Advent continual reference is made to our Lord's second coming .
. .
About
ten of us, including some young mothers, were having some fun with
this pregnancy analogy yesterday. We considered the first trimester
with its wretched morning sickness. We thought of how newly pregnant
women sometimes reassure themselves of their pregnancy. We reflected
on a baby's growing evidence and role -- even personality -- as
she comes closer to term. We thought about how pregnant women often
become increasingly impatient for birth. We talked about how, when
we're pregnant, we live for two. How we're weak. How we develop
an obscure, occasional communication with our child as time goes
on. How others may find us attractive in a way we can't comprehend.
How painful it can be at the end.
We
sat around on Christmas Eve, like Elizabeth and Mary before us,
encouraging one another in our pregnancies. We waited together.
[Elizabeth
and Mary] created space for each other to wait. They affirmed
for each other that something was happening that was worth waiting
for. . . . The visit of Elizabeth and Mary is one of the Bible's
most beautiful expressions of what it means to form community,
to be together, gathered around a promise, affirming that something
is really happening. . . . Waiting together, nurturing what has
already begun, expecting its fulfillment -- that is the meaning
of marriage, friendship, community, and the Christian life. (Henri
Nouwen, Weavings, January 1987)
[The picture above is of Victoria, at right, pregnant with B and
waiting with a friend.]
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Posted December 2006 |