All I can remember
of Chariots of Fire are the endless slow-motion track meets
and a single line: "When I run, I feel his pleasure."
I had a similar feeling a couple of years ago one morning while
happily cross-referencing two or three of my books. I became aware
that I was made, in part, for God to enjoy my cross-referencing.
My cross-referencing
is usually the first part and sometimes a large part of my devotions.
It makes up most of the lectio and the meditatio of
my Lectio Divina.
Do you read this way?
I mean, how weird is this?
I'll start reading a
new book, or rereading an old one. It doesn't have to be a devotional
book, or even a "Christian" book, though it may be both.
It may be the Bible or The Book of Common Prayer. It may
be late at night and I'm reading a biography or maybe some poetry
by Basho or Blake or Ben
Zen.
All of a sudden, something
in the book reminds me of something else in the book, or of something
in another book. And I'm driven to link them with notes in the margins.
I study the passages side by side. If it's really going someplace,
I type up something and save it on the computer.
I start spreading the
books in front of me on the floor. Sometimes I have more than ten
books out along with a few pads, a highlighter and a pen. And I'm
excited. "My heart overflows with a good matter
"
(Psalm 45:1).
And I'm often excited
about the same thought I've had over several mornings over several
years. My notes on the subject keep piling up, like sand on a drip
castle. I sometimes interrupt my meditation with visions of writing
a book on the subject.
I'd be tempted to, except
my cross-referencing, like my reading, is not that extensive. I
read a little at a time, and I stop and move into meditatio or oratio when I'm full enough with reading. It's not like
I'm deliberately researching or anything.
The number of books
connected by my cross-references is relatively small. I have lots
of books with a few cross references, and I have about twenty books
with loads of cross-references. So all of the phantom books I would
author would cite the same principal sources.
My method is pretty
simple. I collect all references to a particular subject (or thought,
if the subject is too broad) in the margin of the book that reminds
me most about that subject or thought. Passages on the same subject
or thought in other books are cross-referenced to that "central
reference."
I thought I'd give you
a sample thought, starting with its central reference.
Thought: Our
hearts can become our treasure -- the playground God and we share.
Central reference: "Your heart, if it is totally surrendered to God, is itself
that treasure, that very kingdom you long for and are seeking."
(Jean-Pierre deCaussade, The Sacrament of the Present Moment (New York: HarperCollins Publishers 1989), p. 30.)
Cross-references:
"Watch over your
heart with all diligence, / For from it flow the springs of life."
(Proverbs 4:23, NNAS)
"He becomes to
them a sensible presence Who follows them and envelops them wherever
they go and in all that they do. . . . and when they have to be
absorbed in some distracting work, they nevertheless easily find
God again by a quick glance into their own souls." (Thomas
Merton, New Seeds of Contemplation (New York: New Directions,
1972), p.276-77.)
"Once the intellect
has accomplished its task
of discovering the place where the heart resides,
it will immediately see things
of which it was previously ignorant
and could never have hoped to find."
(Symeon the New Theologian,
quoted in The Book of Mystical Chapters, John Anthony McGuckin,
trans. (Boston: Shambhala Publications, Inc., 2002), p. 106.)
"The backslider
in heart will have his fill of his own ways, / But a good man will
be satisfied with his." (Proverbs 14:14, NNAS)
"All God's creatures
invite us to forget our vain cares and enter into our own hearts,
which God Himself has made to be His paradise and our own."
(Thomas Merton, No Man is an Island (Orlando: Harcourt Brace
& Company, 1983), p. 115.)
"Soul, you must
seek yourself in Me / And in yourself seek Me." (Teresa of
Avila, "Seeking God.")
"Isaac of Nineveh
likewise used the image of Jacob's ladder as an image for the ascent
to God through descent: 'Strive to enter the treasure chamber that
is within you; that way you will see the heavenly treasure.'"
(Anselm Gruen, Heaven Begins Within You, New York: The Crossroad
Publishing Company, 1999), p. 21.)
"On one hand, the
soul, moved by love, becomes the object of its own knowledge. On
the other hand, the soul, touched and inflamed and transfigured
by the illuminative flame of God's immediate presence, is no longer
the object of knowledge but the actual medium in which God is known."
(Thomas Merton, The Ascent to Truth (Orlando: Harcourt Brace
& Company 1979), p. 278.)
"...[W]here your
treasure is, there your heart will be also." (Matthew 6:21,
NNAS)
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